Belinda sat looking out of the open window, across the vast
expanse of land and wondered, as she had so many times, what would happen if
she just climbed out of it and ran.
It would be a while before anyone would notice she was gone,
the kids were going to their grandma’s after school anyway, because she had an
appointment, so she had a few hours head start.
But as always the fantasy faltered when she thought about
where to go, and how she would survive once there; she had nothing, no
destination, no money and no skills to offer anyone. And her mind went, as
usual, to what would happen here without her; how the kids would feel being
abandoned, how they would survive, even though they still had their father, and
how no one would understand why she had gone.
And plus if she went it meant she could never come back,
never return no matter how hard she might regret it – and she might, she knew
that, which was why, although the open window beckoned to her, she knew she
would never go through it.
Those open windows sometimes lead us several stories down into the dark.
ReplyDeletePrecisely! Thanks for reading!
DeleteThis is a beautiful piece Miranda. I think I can personally relate to this though without the kids and husband. I also think many have had this thought at one point in their lives.
ReplyDeleteExcellent job for catching it so beautiful and making it so heartfelt
Keep on writing